Hey guys, so I know it's been a bit of time since it happened, but I really wanted to throw up a blog post about my views concerning the shooting at Sandy Hook, gun control in general, and the state of our society.
Sandy Hook was beyond tragic, it was pitiful, a pitiful waste of human life, including the students, teachers, and the madman himself. What drove this young man to murder young children is beyond my understanding. I was shocked by the news, hearing from across an the ocean, I spoke about it in school, with my friends, and with people back home over Facebook. I wanted to feel a sense of unity from my country, an Earth moving cry saying: WE WILL RISE ABOVE THIS. But I didn't.....
The first things I saw on Facebook where statuses pointing fingers at guns, at the government, at video games, at movies, even at God. I am sure, caught up in the partisan wave, I commented on a few statuses, trying to point the blame in a direction (I honestly don't remember). But looking back I am disgusted, disgusted we let a madman with a weapon divide us, revealing Americans as a fractured people, when they should be united.....even my generation, the ones who despite what political, religious, or whatever views that we have, still manage to rise above it everyday, remained divided, pointing the finger at the other side. Most of all, I feel defeated, I feel defeated because the U.S to me was always different. We were the noble ones of the world, we fought to preserve our lives...but now we don't. We need to unite, before it's to late, before the next school shooting (several have occurred since), before the next big natural disaster, before the next terrorist attack (though, by all means, this was an act of homegrown terrorism). If we don't we fail. Simple as that.
So, in conclusion, Sandy Hook for me, was an exposition, showing how truly petty and fickle we have become, how our nobility was lost somewhere, and how we are just a step away from chaos. If the United States became truly united again, we could not only overcome this vile act of cruelty, but we could truly make the wrongs right again, regain our purpose as Americans, and lead the world by example once more.
Sean D
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Sunday, January 13, 2013
It's been awhile...
So here I am, I have posted since early October, so before I rant...a rundown:
I am now heavily addicted to sci-fi movies, shows, etc....when I have enough time to chill out
Gillian Craig is my exchange student best friend
My German class is awesome
Spent Christmas with my (real) older brother at an Army base in Bavaria
School is meh.
I am now reading Lord of the Rings in German
I have yet to go to H&M and not buy anything
I own four scarves
I have eaten one metric ton of Gummy bears
Met with fellow CIEE/Experimenters in Cologne (went to a prayer service inside the cathedral)
Christmas markets...Christmas markets everywhere
I have yet to seen the Hobbit
German exams suck
So that is pretty much everything from the past 3 and a half months.
Wow, it has been a long time since I posted. I apologize for leaving whoever reads these in the dark, only with random, nonsensical statues on facebook, along with some pictures. Taking an mental, spiritual, psychological assessment of myself and I am in awe of how much I changed in this time period. Although the more I progress into this exchange I am not sure if it is for better or worse. Being here in Germany has made me wonder so much more about the future, where I, humanity, and this planet are headed. I am of course hoping for what I am consider the best, but I feel maybe just a little bit pessimistic then I used.
Overall, I feel so much more different, my opinions, behavior, even how I understand my religious beliefs as a Christian-Catholic. There are times I wish I could go back to understanding the world as it was, before all this change started taking place. It just seemed like so much more of a bright, colorful place then, now with me thinking the way I have been, I would say it far enough to say this world is still bright and colorful, but constantly changing, constantly under threat from a sudden social change or technological discovery, or even industrialization of what is left of undisturbed, real Earth. I just wish the world, even with it's problems right it has, would stay just as it is, for eternity, but it won't, and it can't.
Now you have and idea of what goes through this exchange student't head on a daily basis!
I'll give a detailed rundown of the Mid Year Meet Up in my next post.
I am now heavily addicted to sci-fi movies, shows, etc....when I have enough time to chill out
Gillian Craig is my exchange student best friend
My German class is awesome
Spent Christmas with my (real) older brother at an Army base in Bavaria
School is meh.
I am now reading Lord of the Rings in German
I have yet to go to H&M and not buy anything
I own four scarves
I have eaten one metric ton of Gummy bears
Met with fellow CIEE/Experimenters in Cologne (went to a prayer service inside the cathedral)
Christmas markets...Christmas markets everywhere
I have yet to seen the Hobbit
German exams suck
So that is pretty much everything from the past 3 and a half months.
Wow, it has been a long time since I posted. I apologize for leaving whoever reads these in the dark, only with random, nonsensical statues on facebook, along with some pictures. Taking an mental, spiritual, psychological assessment of myself and I am in awe of how much I changed in this time period. Although the more I progress into this exchange I am not sure if it is for better or worse. Being here in Germany has made me wonder so much more about the future, where I, humanity, and this planet are headed. I am of course hoping for what I am consider the best, but I feel maybe just a little bit pessimistic then I used.
Overall, I feel so much more different, my opinions, behavior, even how I understand my religious beliefs as a Christian-Catholic. There are times I wish I could go back to understanding the world as it was, before all this change started taking place. It just seemed like so much more of a bright, colorful place then, now with me thinking the way I have been, I would say it far enough to say this world is still bright and colorful, but constantly changing, constantly under threat from a sudden social change or technological discovery, or even industrialization of what is left of undisturbed, real Earth. I just wish the world, even with it's problems right it has, would stay just as it is, for eternity, but it won't, and it can't.
Now you have and idea of what goes through this exchange student't head on a daily basis!
I'll give a detailed rundown of the Mid Year Meet Up in my next post.
Monday, October 1, 2012
The September Slump
I am typing this one from my iPod in front of a warm fire, in Germany. Sounds all cozy and European right? Well it is, but since this isn't on my laptop, please for give any typos, misspellings, or grammatical errors. I've cranking out these things about every two weeks now, mostly because Sunday's or afternoons in Germany provide ample opportunity to do so. So first thing first: I have it the infamous "September Slump" that it is common for a Cbyxer to experience. I miss my family, friends, and my state. I miss my church, my school, the frequent use of the English language, the American mentality, and I am rather upset to be missing string of concerts with some of my favorite artists visiting VB (Matt Maher, Ike Ndolo, Needtobreathe, Ed Sheeran, etc.) I am missing out on Senior year, the first legit homecoming dance in recent Talllwood history, and yes even the THS band program, with my verrückt band director and two good friends as drum majors (Sara and Heather) running the marching band this year (and was given the chance to be in the top ensemble for the first time before I left last year)
To be honest I am telling myself that I am having the time of my life here, that I shouldn't want to trade it for anything, but I am not quite believing it. However, each day is a challenge, and I can feel myself becoming more and more skilled, not only in the German language, but in how I handle myself around people of all kinds (the typical Euro teen is definitely different from how they make them in America, much more akin to college students the. American high schoolers). I am not going to lie, I have failed multiple times already to keep to true to a promise to myself that I was going to stay grounded, not get swept in the moment and compromise what I believe to be my integrity.
But hey, this isn't some epic tragedy, this what being an exchange student is about, to expose yourself to a new culture but still maintain who you are as a person, and in a place that retains some qualities of home, but is yet vastly different, is hard. I am still waiting, praying even that I will come into what I thought was going to perform like here, and go much further from the tourist-like form I have as an exchange student to something much more profound.
In other news...went to my first German club on last Friday. Fun time with a good group of guys, retained my sobriety, and enjoyed myself. Until The group of guys I was with spent two hours getting a cab home, I guess teenagers being bad planners in universal. Wann in Deutschland.
To be honest I am telling myself that I am having the time of my life here, that I shouldn't want to trade it for anything, but I am not quite believing it. However, each day is a challenge, and I can feel myself becoming more and more skilled, not only in the German language, but in how I handle myself around people of all kinds (the typical Euro teen is definitely different from how they make them in America, much more akin to college students the. American high schoolers). I am not going to lie, I have failed multiple times already to keep to true to a promise to myself that I was going to stay grounded, not get swept in the moment and compromise what I believe to be my integrity.
But hey, this isn't some epic tragedy, this what being an exchange student is about, to expose yourself to a new culture but still maintain who you are as a person, and in a place that retains some qualities of home, but is yet vastly different, is hard. I am still waiting, praying even that I will come into what I thought was going to perform like here, and go much further from the tourist-like form I have as an exchange student to something much more profound.
In other news...went to my first German club on last Friday. Fun time with a good group of guys, retained my sobriety, and enjoyed myself. Until The group of guys I was with spent two hours getting a cab home, I guess teenagers being bad planners in universal. Wann in Deutschland.
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Memories.
Hey y'all.
So right my favorite song is "Souvenirs" by my perpetual favorite band Switchfoot.
This song envokes the thought of memories, life decisions, and loved ones. Everytime I here this song I think of how blessed I am that I have received two different groups of people in my life since July. One is of course, the group of American students/fellow crazy people that I spent three weeks of language camp with (those weeks would be the second, third, and fourth best weeks of my life). The otther would be the 2012 Steubenville Atlanta LEADers. Both groups are some of the best friends I have ever had.
The first group helped me prepare for the totally craziness of life in Germany. The culture shock, homesickness, lonliness were all partially or totally erased over the course of those three weeks. I have never had a group of close friends with such a broad spectrum of beliefs, traits, and interests in my life. They are my primary support group while I am here, be always the first I run to when I encounter a problem or a conflict.
The second group, the LEADers, are just plain awesome. I grew so much spiritually in the week I spent with them. I truly think they are something I miss the most, along with my family and close friends. It never truly hit me how much I learned that week until I came here to Germany, how much I developed and matured. That week in Georgia before the Steubenville conference was probably crucial to spending my time well here.
But, "it does not do well to dwell on dreams and forget to live" and despite the fact that I dream where I can have all these people in my life again, here in Germany, it can't happen. So as I type this, the song ends, quickly picked up NEEDTOBREATE's Something Beautiful. A fitting song, considering, that is what I am here for. To see, to live, to expierence, to learn something beautiful. However, I have learned that because I maybe easily hitting the high point in my life so far. That doesn't mean I feel good all the time, or enjoy myself.
This is something I can parallel with one of my favorite books, "The Hobbit", Bilbo begins his adventure on an inkling, a thought that going on some mad trip to a mountain filled with treasure guarded by a blood thirsty dragon would somehow be worth it all. As it began, he felt lost, confused, not having a single idea what he was doing. Feelings I expierence everyday. But then the story progressed, Bilbo came to love the adeventure. So it is with me, and (to tie this whole mess of a blog post together) what kept Bilbo going in those early stages were his memories of Bag End, Hobbiton, and the Shire, alike my memories with those people keep me going everyday, all day.
Memories are a support, but can also fell a person so easily. One must be glad that those expierences, those people, are what carried him here, to this moment in time, in this world. But be careful not to get addicted to the drug of nostalgia, as that what causes men to wish they live in the past.
Praise and Thanks always,
Sean
So right my favorite song is "Souvenirs" by my perpetual favorite band Switchfoot.
This song envokes the thought of memories, life decisions, and loved ones. Everytime I here this song I think of how blessed I am that I have received two different groups of people in my life since July. One is of course, the group of American students/fellow crazy people that I spent three weeks of language camp with (those weeks would be the second, third, and fourth best weeks of my life). The otther would be the 2012 Steubenville Atlanta LEADers. Both groups are some of the best friends I have ever had.
The first group helped me prepare for the totally craziness of life in Germany. The culture shock, homesickness, lonliness were all partially or totally erased over the course of those three weeks. I have never had a group of close friends with such a broad spectrum of beliefs, traits, and interests in my life. They are my primary support group while I am here, be always the first I run to when I encounter a problem or a conflict.
The second group, the LEADers, are just plain awesome. I grew so much spiritually in the week I spent with them. I truly think they are something I miss the most, along with my family and close friends. It never truly hit me how much I learned that week until I came here to Germany, how much I developed and matured. That week in Georgia before the Steubenville conference was probably crucial to spending my time well here.
But, "it does not do well to dwell on dreams and forget to live" and despite the fact that I dream where I can have all these people in my life again, here in Germany, it can't happen. So as I type this, the song ends, quickly picked up NEEDTOBREATE's Something Beautiful. A fitting song, considering, that is what I am here for. To see, to live, to expierence, to learn something beautiful. However, I have learned that because I maybe easily hitting the high point in my life so far. That doesn't mean I feel good all the time, or enjoy myself.
This is something I can parallel with one of my favorite books, "The Hobbit", Bilbo begins his adventure on an inkling, a thought that going on some mad trip to a mountain filled with treasure guarded by a blood thirsty dragon would somehow be worth it all. As it began, he felt lost, confused, not having a single idea what he was doing. Feelings I expierence everyday. But then the story progressed, Bilbo came to love the adeventure. So it is with me, and (to tie this whole mess of a blog post together) what kept Bilbo going in those early stages were his memories of Bag End, Hobbiton, and the Shire, alike my memories with those people keep me going everyday, all day.
Memories are a support, but can also fell a person so easily. One must be glad that those expierences, those people, are what carried him here, to this moment in time, in this world. But be careful not to get addicted to the drug of nostalgia, as that what causes men to wish they live in the past.
Praise and Thanks always,
Sean
Sunday, September 2, 2012
Sunday Morning in Germany
Sup guys,
So here I am in Germany, on a Sunday morning. I got up, realized I just missed Mass for the second time in a row (let's not get into that) and was like "hey I am gonna blog."
Not like I spend enough time on my laptop as is, but no worries it's just a time filler until things really start to kick off (first swim practice in Germany this Monday, so nervous/excited, plus I am starting to get a good group of friends going, but wish me luck) which are is starting this week. Right now my main two concerns are: 1) I need to start getting on top of my game as far as getting in with the "good" crowd (really hard to tell, it's like being a freshman all over again). 2) Last Friday (or two Friday's ago, I forgot how to phrase it) my class wass discussing something about an extended trip (week maybe?) later in September, it would kinda be nice to know what is going on, especially if I have to tell my parents to drop 200+ Euro (which should be interesting considering how my Visa card works here).
Okay I lied, I have three, the third is 3)So my plan for my birthday is to have a small party with my host family with cake and coffee (a German thing?) and then head out for a brewery tour later that evening with my host brother and a couple guys from school (not quite friends more like "hey your English is good, want to chill). Things is I am constantly being told to "live it up" and "party" by a lot of the guys in my class, I am not against having a few beers and heading out to a club, but there is a line that I already know I don't want to cross while I am here and that might turn into an issue next weekend (unlikely though if I keep my head straight).
To be honest, I am truly having a great time here, I do miss home and I look forward to when I can speak English, surf, speak more English, and actally be able to drive a car. BUT I am having a great time, and those pleasures from home can take as much time as they need to to return to my life.
As far as German is concerned, it is improving, I am noticing the more relaxed I am in a situation, the better it is. Mind you this is still two weeks (what?!?! it's felt like two DAYS) in and I still (after three years of studying German, sleeping in German II) sound like strongly American accented toddler.
but yeah, that it's for now!
Cheers
Sean
P.S-my "looking forward to" list of things I am pretty stoked about for the next couple months and getting me through the hard-ish times (going to school and not being able to particpate...grr..just...grr)
1) Birthday party
2) Going to my favorite German city so far, Marburg the day after my birthday.
3) German swim team (little nervous too, I was decent back in the states and the coach asked me to try out and I don't want he/she to think I am Michael Phelps...or Tim Hupp for that matter)
4) When all the CIEE kids in Hesse MEET UP (if that ever happens before mid-year)
5) Mid-year seminar in Bonn (January, loooonnng ways away)
6) German Christmas and New Year #momnobodydoesthepicklethinghere
7) Seeing my brother at some point (Thanksgiving)
8) AMERICAN THANKSGIVING Chaa....hopefully either with all the Hesse kids or with Rachel Tempesco and Mrs.G in Stuttgart +host famalies (still working out the whole conversation of "hey, can we go Stuttgart to spend a holiday that isn't even celebrated here in a catle with people you don't know but I do, yet we are in Germany")
...and publish
So here I am in Germany, on a Sunday morning. I got up, realized I just missed Mass for the second time in a row (let's not get into that) and was like "hey I am gonna blog."
Not like I spend enough time on my laptop as is, but no worries it's just a time filler until things really start to kick off (first swim practice in Germany this Monday, so nervous/excited, plus I am starting to get a good group of friends going, but wish me luck) which are is starting this week. Right now my main two concerns are: 1) I need to start getting on top of my game as far as getting in with the "good" crowd (really hard to tell, it's like being a freshman all over again). 2) Last Friday (or two Friday's ago, I forgot how to phrase it) my class wass discussing something about an extended trip (week maybe?) later in September, it would kinda be nice to know what is going on, especially if I have to tell my parents to drop 200+ Euro (which should be interesting considering how my Visa card works here).
Okay I lied, I have three, the third is 3)So my plan for my birthday is to have a small party with my host family with cake and coffee (a German thing?) and then head out for a brewery tour later that evening with my host brother and a couple guys from school (not quite friends more like "hey your English is good, want to chill). Things is I am constantly being told to "live it up" and "party" by a lot of the guys in my class, I am not against having a few beers and heading out to a club, but there is a line that I already know I don't want to cross while I am here and that might turn into an issue next weekend (unlikely though if I keep my head straight).
To be honest, I am truly having a great time here, I do miss home and I look forward to when I can speak English, surf, speak more English, and actally be able to drive a car. BUT I am having a great time, and those pleasures from home can take as much time as they need to to return to my life.
As far as German is concerned, it is improving, I am noticing the more relaxed I am in a situation, the better it is. Mind you this is still two weeks (what?!?! it's felt like two DAYS) in and I still (after three years of studying German, sleeping in German II) sound like strongly American accented toddler.
but yeah, that it's for now!
Cheers
Sean
P.S-my "looking forward to" list of things I am pretty stoked about for the next couple months and getting me through the hard-ish times (going to school and not being able to particpate...grr..just...grr)
1) Birthday party
2) Going to my favorite German city so far, Marburg the day after my birthday.
3) German swim team (little nervous too, I was decent back in the states and the coach asked me to try out and I don't want he/she to think I am Michael Phelps...or Tim Hupp for that matter)
4) When all the CIEE kids in Hesse MEET UP (if that ever happens before mid-year)
5) Mid-year seminar in Bonn (January, loooonnng ways away)
6) German Christmas and New Year #momnobodydoesthepicklethinghere
7) Seeing my brother at some point (Thanksgiving)
8) AMERICAN THANKSGIVING Chaa....hopefully either with all the Hesse kids or with Rachel Tempesco and Mrs.G in Stuttgart +host famalies (still working out the whole conversation of "hey, can we go Stuttgart to spend a holiday that isn't even celebrated here in a catle with people you don't know but I do, yet we are in Germany")
...and publish
Monday, August 27, 2012
Why I think Hessen, Germany is the Shire and Why I am coming back to Tallwood for another year of awesome.
Guten Tag ya'll
First off, I want to start of this blog by giving a shout out to the one and only amazing Sally Pryor (aka my best friend) for surviving Hell Week at Virginia Military Institute. I know you did well Sally and I am really proud of you!
Okay so, the state I am living in, Hessen, Germany is the Shire. Reasons include:
1) It is unrealistically green.
2) Hungen looks like Hobbiton
3) It rains only when it is the proper time to do so.
4) I am pretty sure I saw Gandalf yesterday.
5) Did I mention how green this place is?
Second, I would like to put it out there that I am coming back to Tallwood next school year. I am really excited to join the class of 2014, and I am sure my senior adventures with the likes of Caroline, Aidan, Elle, Chase, and Patrick will be most epic.
okay, this was short one.
Cheers,
Sean
First off, I want to start of this blog by giving a shout out to the one and only amazing Sally Pryor (aka my best friend) for surviving Hell Week at Virginia Military Institute. I know you did well Sally and I am really proud of you!
Okay so, the state I am living in, Hessen, Germany is the Shire. Reasons include:
1) It is unrealistically green.
2) Hungen looks like Hobbiton
3) It rains only when it is the proper time to do so.
4) I am pretty sure I saw Gandalf yesterday.
5) Did I mention how green this place is?
Second, I would like to put it out there that I am coming back to Tallwood next school year. I am really excited to join the class of 2014, and I am sure my senior adventures with the likes of Caroline, Aidan, Elle, Chase, and Patrick will be most epic.
okay, this was short one.
Cheers,
Sean
Saturday, August 25, 2012
First Week with the Host Family
Guten Tag everyone!
Okay, so I am sitting here typing this blog on my first Saturday morning with my host family, that's right I have so managed to last a week through all the insanity that comes with being the new American student in Hungen, Germany. I am going to list the major points:
1. My host family is wonderful, hands down, I am really blessed to have them.
2. I was lucky enough to time my arrival with a small group of students from Buffulo, N.Y visiting Hungen. They have been here for about a week before me, but they are leaving this Monday. They have made it a lot easier adjusting to culture shock, and I am have some friends as a result because the group is staying with host students. Jive.
3. I think I have gone to school less then I have ever in my life for a week that was intended to be a full week of school. I think we are all aware that in Germany, if the teacher never shows up, you don't have class.
4. I have officially decided to return to Tallwood High School for another year of school after my time in Germany. It was pretty clear to me that I will only be learning German in school this year, and that I may only be able to understand what is going on towards the end of the year in most of my classes.
5. I have a newfound musical addiction to Owl City.
6/ Nutella and Ice Tea is a great morning-after-the-party meal
oh, and cheers!
Sean
Okay, so I am sitting here typing this blog on my first Saturday morning with my host family, that's right I have so managed to last a week through all the insanity that comes with being the new American student in Hungen, Germany. I am going to list the major points:
1. My host family is wonderful, hands down, I am really blessed to have them.
2. I was lucky enough to time my arrival with a small group of students from Buffulo, N.Y visiting Hungen. They have been here for about a week before me, but they are leaving this Monday. They have made it a lot easier adjusting to culture shock, and I am have some friends as a result because the group is staying with host students. Jive.
3. I think I have gone to school less then I have ever in my life for a week that was intended to be a full week of school. I think we are all aware that in Germany, if the teacher never shows up, you don't have class.
4. I have officially decided to return to Tallwood High School for another year of school after my time in Germany. It was pretty clear to me that I will only be learning German in school this year, and that I may only be able to understand what is going on towards the end of the year in most of my classes.
5. I have a newfound musical addiction to Owl City.
6/ Nutella and Ice Tea is a great morning-after-the-party meal
oh, and cheers!
Sean
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